Unlock your knees, your jaw, your neck,
your back, your breath,
and breathe. It’s a simple request,
to ask you to breathe,
but it’s a lifetime’s work.
It’s a lifetime’s work
to stay in the present,
to live in full fervent colour
when old clouds gather
to piss grey all over your attempts.
Grey is valuable, for it is comfort;
never growth. You have to be scorched
to appreciate cold; dog-tired
to chase your sleep; to fail
in order to succeed; broke, to empathise with greed.
I have spent a great sum of time dwelling on the importance of living ‘in the moment’ that it has often, quite incidentally, taken me out of the moment. But from this dwelling I feel as though I’ve risen with a great secret.
As I write now, I feel very present; so present that in fact I have to strain to remember that the past intention of this blog was rooted in the writing process itself; not this sort of spiritual discussion. Yet I have discovered that ‘writing’, whatever it may constitute, is under the command of presence. Bad writing is that which dwells, or that which anticipates.
Whenever I sit down to write a poem, having been through a hellish day that I’d rather forget, and I want to throw it out onto the page, it can go one of two ways: I may produce the first draft of a masterpiece or simply codify my inner-moaning. The same can go for planning and ‘anticipating’ work. Threefold, I have come to learn the difference.